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Zapped – Know Your Pollution

Zapped – Know Your Pollution

zapped-gittleman“Why your Cell Phone Shouldn’t Be Your Alarm Clock and 1,268 Ways to Outsmart the Hazards of Electronic Pollution” is the long subtitle of this book by Ann Louise Gittleman. Because my husband uses his old-fashioned cell phone (not a smart phone that constantly checks Email) as an alarm clock, I hoped this would persuade him to try something different but… no dice.

It prompted me to get a fabric catalog from LessEMF.com so I could make field-dampening pillow cases. (Haven’t done it yet.) You can also get meters to determine how much EMF you have or Stetzerizers to filter out the offending wavelengths (also called Graham-Stetzer filters).

Page 8 offers a chart of infrequences emitted by everyday things from microwaves to power lines.It goes on to explain

“Like everything else in our world, our bodies and every organ and tissue they contain have their own distinct frequency. The late Bruce Tainio… built the first frequency monitor in the world.. and determined that the average frequency of the human body during the daytime is 62-68 Hz. When the frequency drops to 58 Hz, cold and flu symptoms appear; at 55 Hz, disorders like candida take hold, at 52 Hz, Epstein-Barr, and at 42 Hz, cancer.”

The author talks about the work of Nobel Prize winner Gunter Blobel, M.D., Ph.D, who established that cell signaling includes frequencies (energetic signals) which are picked up by peptides. He also studied with Hazel Parcells, M.D., Ph.D. who taught Ms. Gittleman to think of each cell in the body as an electric battery broadcasting the pulsating rhythm of life. When you change the energy, you change how effectively the cells work.

Zapped directed me to AntennaSearch.com where I found these diagrams of the wireless towers near my house. I was relieved because it was so much less than the blasting RF I was exposed to when I worked in a TV station in San Francisco for seven years.

Antenna Search map results

Antenna Search map results

TinFoilHatMy favorite product, one purchased by a friend of mine when she realized how much wireless pollution she was exposed to, is her “tin foil hat.” She wears it most nights, taking a break from time to time because it seems to be so effective that it interferes with dreams. Described in the catalog as, “Stretchy Silver-coated nylon skull cap with ear flaps is lightweight and breathes nicely. Comfortable enough to wear year-round while sleeping, thin enough to be worn under a conventional hat or all on its own.” The perfect gift for someone who has everything.

Change the Habit, Don’t Break It

Change the Habit, Don’t Break It

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As The Brownies pointed out “as per Einstein, to keep doing the same thing and expect different results is insanity.” Charles Duhigg’s “The Power of Habit” shows us how to effectively change the routine to improve our self-mastery. “Change might not be fast and it isn’t always easy. But with time and effort, almost any habit can be reshaped,” he says.

habitSo much of what we do is automatic. We have to identify the habitual behavior and identify the cues that trigger actions. Eradicating a loop is unlikely. Your best bet is to change the routine you engage in when a cue kicks in.

The key to success is the reward. When your brain gets the cue, it’s going to execute the behavior to get the reward. That’s how brains work. That’s why salad diets don’t work. A salad isn’t a reward. Brains light up with grease, salt and sugar (including alcohol). Pizza and beer. No one says, “Come over for football and a salad.”

The best part of this book is the Appendix which breaks down the steps using an example from the Author’s life.

  • Identify the routine
  • Experiment with rewards
  • Isolate the cue
  • Have a plan

First, get mindful of your pattern. Then break it down into stimulus and response. What is the reward? Is it really a desire for cocktails or it is a desire for relaxation? Perhaps for conversation or connection with another?

Step Three: Isolate the Cue

When does this happen? The same time every night, like right after work, or only on Friday at 5 p.m.? He made a list of the location, time, emotional state, other people and immediately preceding action to track down the cue, writing it down every day when he felt the urge.

Step Four is to create a plan to practice a different routine to get the reward. In his example, Charles Duhigg was looking for “a moment of distraction and the opportunity to socialize.” He wanted a break at about 3 p.m. each day. In England, he might have a “cuppa tea.” In fact, that’s what he did. He made a plan to look for a friend at a desk and if no one was to be found, to go the the cafeteria and have a cup of tea, skipping the big sweet cookie that was bad for him.

Obviously, changing some habits can be more difficult. But this framework is a place to start. Sometimes change takes a long time. Sometimes it requires repeated experiments and failures. But once you understand how a habit operates — once you diagnose the cue, the routine and the reward — you gain power over it.

Spring Lake Has a Beaver

Spring Lake Has a Beaver

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Sheila Albert was so kind to invite me on her birthday walk around Spring Lake. Her partner, Bob Brannigan, arranged the special birding walk with their dear friends Bill, Judy, Steve and photographer-naturalist Tom Reynolds. With binoculars and bird books (and an iPhone app) we looked at twitters, flutters, swimmers, nests and habitats for beaver (pictured) muskrat, otters and mink.

A spectacular green heron (immature) posed for us in perfect light. Too far for me to photograph but I’m sure Bill got something great.

I especially enjoyed learning how to recognize a squirrel nest. Tom is an amazing source of knowledge. Judy was delighted to learn that racoons could be encouraged to depart their encampment under a deck with the scattering of mountain lion scat acquired from the Sonoma County wildlife shelter near the landfill on Reibli Rd.

And frozen paths are not muddy. Yea!

Zen, SAMe and Ear Wax

Zen, SAMe and Ear Wax

I have had a bad week. Last Thursday, after a shower, I dried my ear with a twist of toilet paper and plugged up one ear. I ignored it, and on Friday I increased my SAMe intake from two tablets a day to three, shrugging off the warning of increased agitation.

Saturday morning the ear was still plugged up so I went after it with a Qtip, driving the wax so far into my ear that it triggered feelings of claustrophobia. To distract myself, I went to see “Zero Dark Thirty” about brutal interrogation, waterboarding, and a Seal assault leading to death. I was so overwhelmed with the feeling of suffocation I had to leave the theater three times in the first hour. The feeling of being choked was so strong I actually took off my necklace. Yet I took a third SAMe for the day right after the movie.

AKD-sadToddlerSaturday night I felt like I was dying. My mind said, “it’s just earwax. You’re not going to die of earwax.” but my body really ached up the center line from my solar plexus to my heart.
My early-life decision came back: No one would help me. They were going to leave me me die. I had such a strong “felt sense” of being a sick child with plugged ears and a stuffed nose and not being able to breathe. I felt like I was being punished for being bad.

I know that at the age pictured, with two smokers in their early 20s for parents, I had frequent bouts of tonsillitis and upper respiratory congestion. My long hair would get matted when I was sick and I hated having it combed out. In frustration, they may have decided to “just let her cry.”

I kept going outside for walks in the 25-degree night because it was the only time I felt I had enough space or enough air. My mind said, “You don’t breathe through your ears. This is discomfort. You can tolerate it.” I did not wake up my husband because there was nothing he could do to help me. I started to understand what Xanax is for.

Vulnerable means Woundable. Can we try “Receptive”?

I try to fix things myself. I was so frustrated that I could not see into my ear. I knew the Emergency Room on a Sunday in January would be full of people with the flu coughing on me because ear wax would be called last. By mid-morning I realized that a neighbor I sometimes speak to is a retired doctor. I knocked on her door at noon. Nothing.

By mid-afternoon she was back and was happy to rinse out my ear with a dilute solution of hydrogen peroxide. She got it unplugged. I was SOO relieved. Went to the store and got her a $20 bottle of French wine. But I didn’t sleep that night. The agitation was almost as bad, except this time I could hear with both ears. I found a pile of leaves on the sidewalk nearby. Crunching though them at midnight calmed me.

Monday morning it took 2 hours to get a doctor appointment, and they wouldn’t give me one on the same day. Another bad night, but I stayed inside. Tuesday the young doctor scraped the wax off my eardrums and it hurt! “I thought you had suction!” I yelped. But I can hear better now.

What I Learned

As toddlers, we really are helpless, but the “learned helplessness” can be crippling in later life and can become part of the foundation of depression. To climb out of the harmful early leaning, I can learn to look for the Helpers, and to ask for help. I now have tools that I did not have as a pre-schooler, including Reiki, Zen Mind, Compassion and other spiritual and mental tools.

I should let my ears drain naturally, not even a hair dryer, because ear wax is supposed to stay pliable so it doesn’t stick to your eardrum. Lateral jaw action and an occasional, single drop of mineral oil in the ear will help keep it pliable.

I should have started the search for an ear doctor right away. The feeling of dying can be very scary. Three SAMe tablets is too many.
MindNoMind

Intuition: Allegra Goodman

Intuition: Allegra Goodman

Intuition by Allegra Goodman

Intuition by Allegra Goodman

A few weeks ago, the New York Times ran an article on Lab Lit, Where Science Fiction Meets the Real World. I tried to read “State of Wonder” by Ann Patchett (2011) which attempted to take me into the jungles of the Amazon where a researcher investigating a promising new fertility drug has gone missing, but I hated Patchett’s best-selling “Bel Canto” and could not get farther than page 50 of “States of Wonder.

Happily, I really liked Allegra Goodman’s “Intuition” (2006), which deals with fraud in a biotech lab. Ms. Goodman did some of her research in a lab at the Whitehead Institute for Biomedical Research in Cambridge, and she demonstrates how questionable results can make it onto the record, despite the good intentions of the scientist involved. It took me back to my years in Massachusetts when I was married to a candidate for a Ph.D. in Environmental Engineering.

The others in his Environmental Engineering program included entomologists studying gypsy moths. He did not get the doctorate. After I left him, he got kicked out of the program for falsifying his data. I was not the one who turned him in. It was the pretty lab technician he was bonking, the one who already had a child out of wedlock when she met him. Sure, I knew he was falsifying data when he was about two years into the program. I saw him sitting at the table in our bedroom in Graduate Student Housing filling in lab data sheets. Sure, I knew he was cheating when I found women’s underwear smaller than my size on that same the bedroom floor.

I had been a biologist for my first two years of college and I knew the rules. I asked him what he was doing and he growled at me. I shrank back and disappeared.

When one does not have an independent source of support, when one is financially dependent on the person who is lying, one can make some destructive decisions. That is an underlying theme of “Intuition”.

Allegra Goodman draws clearly defined personalities that really drive the action. Dr. Glass, the marketing half of the research lab, is a successful, wealthy, practicing M.D. who “embraced mythology. He was an oncologist. He understood the uses of enchantment.”

The prime mover of the lab is Dr. Marion Mendelssohn, a brilliant researcher committed to finding the truth but who is hobbbled by her introversion. When they are hauled before a congressional committee to defend work in their lab, Dr. Glass spurs Marion to defend herself. “Stop acting guilty when you’re not. Stop dreading everything when you have nothing to fear.”

The strong characterization would make this novel a candidate for a movie, but the ending is a lot like true life. And not a Hollywood ending. In real life, the good guys don’t always win, but that doesn’t necessarily mean the bad guys win.

Sometimes being right costs you everything.

How important is it to be right? As my friend Beth once asked, “Would you rather be right or be happy?” I saw the dismay creep into her face as I struggled with what she thought was an easy question.

I identified with the researcher who was committed to the truth, to being right. And I laugh at my glee, realizing that my cheating husband was kicked out of his Ph.D. program because the slatternly lab tech turned on him.

Merry Christmas 2012

Merry Christmas 2012

Puerto Rico 1951. We are both missing a front tooth.

Puerto Rico 1951. We are both missing a front tooth.


We had just moved to Puerto Rico and everything seemed a little strange. Peggy was a tiny baby, just two months old and I had just turned 6 one week before when I got the cowgirl boots. It was a strange Christmas because it wasn’t cold. I got a Hopalong Cassidy cowgirl outfit for Christmas and I loved it so much, especially the boots! I ran to the playground to show it off to my friend who also had a new cowgirl outfit and hers was different. Her skirt has a fringe and I think she had fringed gloves. We are each are missing a front tooth. True friendship forever. (I don’t remember her name…)

Movement Fills an Empty Heart

Movement Fills an Empty Heart

The opposite of play is not work. The opposite of play is depression. My study of depressed women who were successfully treated through endurance running upholds the power of movement and play to fill an aching heart. Through running, these women discovered a source of vitality and emotional confidence without a lot of intellectual investigation. The physical play bypassed the cognitive roadblocks and built new neural pathways to happiness.

Stuart Brown, M.D.
PLAY: How it Shapes the Brain,
Opens the Imagination, and Invigorates the Soul

Diana Vreeland: The Eye Must Travel

Diana Vreeland: The Eye Must Travel

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Before Anna Wintour and “The Devil Wears Prada” there was Diana Vreeland, Editor in Chief of Vogue. Both Anna and Diana were brilliant tyrants in the Steve Jobs vein. Her granddaughter produced and edited “Diana Vreeland: The Eye Must Travel” based on the audio tapes of interviews with George Plimpton who ghosted her memoir “D.V.” She included very interesting interviews with Diana’s (pronounced deeAHNa) two sons who admired her sense of style but not her mothering skills.

The movie had all the 60’s models I idolized: Jean Shrimpton (pictured), Twiggy, Verushka, Penolope Tree, Lauren Hutton and the photographers: Avedon, David Bailey. Interviews with the designers: Mahnolo Blahnick, Oscar de la Renda, Carolina Herrera. The celebrities: Jackie Kennedy, Jack Nicholson, Angelica Huston, Warren Beatty… TV interview clips with youthful Dick Cavett, Diane Sawyer, Jane Pauley.

I read the magazine cover to cover nearly every month. I remember many of the photo spreads and covers. It became part of my values of glamor, personal style and the illusion of beauty. I most admired Jean Shrimpton and based my look on this image from 1965, my first year of college in New York City.

D.V. believed that we must “invent” our lives, and travel to exciting places provided the background for the most spectacular photo shoots. The eye must travel.