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Intuition: Allegra Goodman

Intuition: Allegra Goodman

Intuition by Allegra Goodman

Intuition by Allegra Goodman

A few weeks ago, the New York Times ran an article on Lab Lit, Where Science Fiction Meets the Real World. I tried to read “State of Wonder” by Ann Patchett (2011) which attempted to take me into the jungles of the Amazon where a researcher investigating a promising new fertility drug has gone missing, but I hated Patchett’s best-selling “Bel Canto” and could not get farther than page 50 of “States of Wonder.

Happily, I really liked Allegra Goodman’s “Intuition” (2006), which deals with fraud in a biotech lab. Ms. Goodman did some of her research in a lab at the Whitehead Institute for Biomedical Research in Cambridge, and she demonstrates how questionable results can make it onto the record, despite the good intentions of the scientist involved. It took me back to my years in Massachusetts when I was married to a candidate for a Ph.D. in Environmental Engineering.

The others in his Environmental Engineering program included entomologists studying gypsy moths. He did not get the doctorate. After I left him, he got kicked out of the program for falsifying his data. I was not the one who turned him in. It was the pretty lab technician he was bonking, the one who already had a child out of wedlock when she met him. Sure, I knew he was falsifying data when he was about two years into the program. I saw him sitting at the table in our bedroom in Graduate Student Housing filling in lab data sheets. Sure, I knew he was cheating when I found women’s underwear smaller than my size on that same the bedroom floor.

I had been a biologist for my first two years of college and I knew the rules. I asked him what he was doing and he growled at me. I shrank back and disappeared.

When one does not have an independent source of support, when one is financially dependent on the person who is lying, one can make some destructive decisions. That is an underlying theme of “Intuition”.

Allegra Goodman draws clearly defined personalities that really drive the action. Dr. Glass, the marketing half of the research lab, is a successful, wealthy, practicing M.D. who “embraced mythology. He was an oncologist. He understood the uses of enchantment.”

The prime mover of the lab is Dr. Marion Mendelssohn, a brilliant researcher committed to finding the truth but who is hobbbled by her introversion. When they are hauled before a congressional committee to defend work in their lab, Dr. Glass spurs Marion to defend herself. “Stop acting guilty when you’re not. Stop dreading everything when you have nothing to fear.”

The strong characterization would make this novel a candidate for a movie, but the ending is a lot like true life. And not a Hollywood ending. In real life, the good guys don’t always win, but that doesn’t necessarily mean the bad guys win.

Sometimes being right costs you everything.

How important is it to be right? As my friend Beth once asked, “Would you rather be right or be happy?” I saw the dismay creep into her face as I struggled with what she thought was an easy question.

I identified with the researcher who was committed to the truth, to being right. And I laugh at my glee, realizing that my cheating husband was kicked out of his Ph.D. program because the slatternly lab tech turned on him.

Merry Christmas 2012

Merry Christmas 2012

Puerto Rico 1951. We are both missing a front tooth.

Puerto Rico 1951. We are both missing a front tooth.


We had just moved to Puerto Rico and everything seemed a little strange. Peggy was a tiny baby, just two months old and I had just turned 6 one week before when I got the cowgirl boots. It was a strange Christmas because it wasn’t cold. I got a Hopalong Cassidy cowgirl outfit for Christmas and I loved it so much, especially the boots! I ran to the playground to show it off to my friend who also had a new cowgirl outfit and hers was different. Her skirt has a fringe and I think she had fringed gloves. We are each are missing a front tooth. True friendship forever. (I don’t remember her name…)

Movement Fills an Empty Heart

Movement Fills an Empty Heart

The opposite of play is not work. The opposite of play is depression. My study of depressed women who were successfully treated through endurance running upholds the power of movement and play to fill an aching heart. Through running, these women discovered a source of vitality and emotional confidence without a lot of intellectual investigation. The physical play bypassed the cognitive roadblocks and built new neural pathways to happiness.

Stuart Brown, M.D.
PLAY: How it Shapes the Brain,
Opens the Imagination, and Invigorates the Soul

Diana Vreeland: The Eye Must Travel

Diana Vreeland: The Eye Must Travel

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Before Anna Wintour and “The Devil Wears Prada” there was Diana Vreeland, Editor in Chief of Vogue. Both Anna and Diana were brilliant tyrants in the Steve Jobs vein. Her granddaughter produced and edited “Diana Vreeland: The Eye Must Travel” based on the audio tapes of interviews with George Plimpton who ghosted her memoir “D.V.” She included very interesting interviews with Diana’s (pronounced deeAHNa) two sons who admired her sense of style but not her mothering skills.

The movie had all the 60’s models I idolized: Jean Shrimpton (pictured), Twiggy, Verushka, Penolope Tree, Lauren Hutton and the photographers: Avedon, David Bailey. Interviews with the designers: Mahnolo Blahnick, Oscar de la Renda, Carolina Herrera. The celebrities: Jackie Kennedy, Jack Nicholson, Angelica Huston, Warren Beatty… TV interview clips with youthful Dick Cavett, Diane Sawyer, Jane Pauley.

I read the magazine cover to cover nearly every month. I remember many of the photo spreads and covers. It became part of my values of glamor, personal style and the illusion of beauty. I most admired Jean Shrimpton and based my look on this image from 1965, my first year of college in New York City.

D.V. believed that we must “invent” our lives, and travel to exciting places provided the background for the most spectacular photo shoots. The eye must travel.

Augusten Burroughs This Is How

Augusten Burroughs This Is How

Just a quick note on Augusten Burroughs (a chosen name, not the one he was born with) and his “help for the self overcoming shyness, molestation, fatness, spinsterhood, grief, disease, lushery, decrepitude and more, for young and old alike.” Gotta say, he sure know how to include keywords in his title!

He doesn’t exactly address fatness, instead he tells a sad tale about anorexia. His solution? Tough love. Give the anorexic a ton of money, tell her you love her, kick her out and never EVER give her another piece of advice. I’ll bet his technique has a low survival rate. And I’ll further bet that his survival rate is just as good as current therapy.

Overcoming lushery: he is an expert, having nearly killed himself with alcoholism. During his recovery he wrote the book “Dry.” His recommended technique? Want something more than booze. This, by the way, is also the way to overcome decrepitude.

Therapy? That was the best advice. This from page 121:

Augusten Burroughs This Is HowFor years, I believed [discussing my past in therapy] was how to live.
I was wrong.
It’s how to stagnate.
I know now how to get over the past.
It has worked for me in a deeper, more enduring way than any therapy I have ever had.
Writing six autobiographical books is what freed me from my past.

“Dry” was one of those autobiographical books. On page 177 of this book he tells a mother who lost a son to alcoholism a hard fact. “The fact she was missing was HIS fact. He loved alcohol. He died doing what he loved most.”

How to overcome Spinsterhood? Meet lots of people by every means possible. Use a different dry cleaner. Go to different grocery stores. Talk to people and present yourself as you are, not the gussied-up version of yourself. If you want someone who will love you as you actually are, present yourself as you actually are.

He ends with a detailed description of the slow death of his partner from debilitating disease. The book is an essay on the meaning of life which he boils down to Be Here Now. Fully Present. Don’t be afraid of the disease. When the symptoms arrive, you will cope with them and it will be okay. The fear of torture is much worse than the torture itself.

This is a good book. Recommended.

Mud Run at Two Rock Coast Guard Station

Mud Run at Two Rock Coast Guard Station
Mud Run at Two Rock Coast Guard Station

A muddy mother gives her supportive young son a grimy hug and big wet kiss. He was beaming afterward! More women of all ages clambered through the mud on this cool Sunday in September. Enjoyed the chance to visit the Two Rock Coast Guard Station which is usually closed to the public, on this first-time event.

We went on to Pt. Reyes for a great fried oyster sandwich for lunch at the Pine Cone cafe. How I love Point Reyes!

Airship Over Wine Country

Airship Over Wine Country
Airship Over Wine Country

I was so excited to hear about a zeppelin at Sonoma County airport that I went for a ride on it before 24 hours went by. Howard saw the zeppelin at the airport on Thursday and the next morning I signed up for the 3 p.m. cruise to Guerneville and back. Buoyant flight feels more like scuba diving than flying in a plane. The lift-off feels more like rising to the surface of the water using a buoyancy compensator. Landing is so gentle that there is hardly any sensation — so different from the loud and pressured landing of an airplane. The airship never actually touches down — it just hovers as new passengers board and departing ones disembark simultaneously so that the weight load stays constant. For more, see this article in the Press Democrat.
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The Rat From Hell

The Rat From Hell

ratThe Rat From Hell met her demise shortly after Howard pulled her out from under the refrigerator, about a week after we returned from France. Next we pulled the refrigerator away from the wall to clean up anything else left behind, but the refrigerator never worked right afterwards. I defrosted it by hand several times but finally called a repairman in September.

She had chewed through a wire so the refrigerator no longer defrosted automatically. Repair bill: $232 and many lost hours defrosting and reading the appliance manual. I did, however, learn where the condenser coils are.

The rat got into the garage on Friday, April 27, a week before we left for France. Claude saw the rat after I entered the house and the garage door was coming down. His instincts kicked in and he went after the rat one second too late. He did not get far enough into the garage to trigger the safety beam that would have stopped the garage door. Claude’s fatal hunting accident was a cat-tastrophy.

I was so upset by the sudden loss of Claude that it took me a couple of days to realize there was a rat in the house. I made sure there was no food available the rat when we left in the hope that it would go away by itself, but the rat nicked the cashews I was planning to take with me and enjoyed them while I was in Paris.

The rat was still in residence when we returned. I got some mousetraps which were too small but klonked her hard enough to daze her. That’s when she hid under the refrigerator.

I did not enjoy cleaning up what was left of the cashews after they had gone through the rat. And I had to throw out a slipcover. It was disgusting and depressing.

Total cost: Claude the cat that we loved, $232 for appliance repair, many hours defrosting and reading the appliance manual, one chewed-through slipcover and few weeks of depression over the creepy ickyness of it. I suppose it could have been worse. I am grateful to Howard for following his hunch to check under the refrigerator. I would not have looked there.

Martin Walter: The Dark Vineyard

Martin Walter: The Dark Vineyard

The Dark Vineyard

by Martin Walker

Martin Walker is a senior editor and columnist for United Press International who has turned his clear, journalistic writing to creating absorbing mysteries set in the French countryside — Perigord to be exact. Classmate Russ McCracken from the SRJC class recommended his books and the library lent me book three in the series. I am looking forward to tracking books one and two: Bruno, Chief of Police and The Caves of Perigord